We in a crazy world. One full of horrific experiences. People die everyday and everyday is a start of a living nightmare for the baby born every minute. Its really crazy. Some survive it and some ended before the conclusion.
I was almost part of that statics, but I am so happy that’s no longer possible.
To seek happiness people try everything. Drugs to see stars, alcohol to forget or suicide to permanently numb the pain. Even though I am so proud that I don’t drink or smoke anything, that wasn’t always the case. I too wanted to escape my world… I wanted weed or some type of pill, but being a “saint” I didn’t even know how or where to find it. Maybe scared to. Plus, I could never truly steal my dad’s liquor. So instead, the pain remain constantly in my heart and mind.
I am thankful for my fear because I now know how to find the fantasy world without any harmful substances in my system.
As weird as it sounds, I started visualizing what I wanted and wrote it everywhere. I distract myself with things that make me happy. It became a habit and soon enough, I lost sight of the current troubles.
I see myself very happy. With that beautiful house and car. With kids that have open communication with their parents. I see myself as that beautiful, independent and successful lady changing the world. Saving the youth from poverty, mental illnesses. I see myself on a stage speaking to hundreds of people.
It always works for me. I tend to smile whenever the thoughts come in. Your thoughts are yours. You see what you wanna see and not the negative “fact” people tell you.
I feel like I have the biggest dreams ever. I strive for what many do not have, especially in an expensive country like mine with all the economic crisis happening.
Something am learning is how to believe in people too. Don’t get me wrong, I love people. Working them, even more, but I have a fear or betrayal and disappointment. So am working on seeing people in my fantasy world too. I wanna see the good in everyone, even those who try to make my life a living hell. Those people got problems too, reason they wanna trouble your life as well.
So that’s my fantasy world. Full of colors and normal human being. Huge dreams and a lot of happiness.
Ey guys. Once again, you emails and messages were encouraging. So glad y’all are reading and understand my way of things. Could post Saturday, sorry for that.
Will be post every Wednesday day and Saturday. Will place it in my bio too.